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How come when i used Mozilla to view it,
it's different from Internet Explorer.
Weird.
Can anyone tell me how does it look like,
especially the scroll-down black column part.

I didn't contact you for 2 days, you kept messaging me telling me that just a message from me would make you feel better. You tweeted all those stuffs & made me think that you really missed me. I contacted you back after 2 days. If i've not pulled myself out from that trap, i wouldn't have contacted you back. Make it clear, I pulled MYSELF out WITHOUT ANY HELPING HANDS FROM YOU. I thought you've changed, i thought you've specifically thought through every issues, i was totally wrong, totally wrong. I won't mention what you did, because i know you won't want people to know. But please think, i'm not a toy that allow you to grab it back, & hit it on the ground hardly. Stop playing with my feelings. You were so sweet with your texts when i was away & not contacting you. After i've got back, your texts were totally despicable. " Nb, Cb, Orh, Ok etc " What do you want from me, seriously i need to know. Because i don't wna fall into your trap again & again. You told me you don't want me to slack with any other girls, ok i stopped since yesterday, i stayed at home, even when my cousin called me out, i refused. Why do i have to do all these? Just plainly because i knew that there will be a way out for us. But you proved me wrong totally. You could even go meet up your whoever with your friend. Have you ever think about me, or especially yourself? You're making yourself in a unworthy state. You're making me think that it's wrong to have contacted you again, to have loved you again, to have to miss you again, to have to need you again. When can you ever change, how much time alone, or how much efforts alone, I have to spend to wait for the change in you. We were supposed to meet at 10 2 days ago. In the end? You went to club, with your friends & even guys, without even informing me that you're going there & you're throwing away our meet-up. I have no idea of what am i supposed to say anymore. So many souls are asking me to give you up, i refused because i know i can't. & You ? Happily wandering off with your life, with your sweet talks to me, yet I cannot see any single change in you. I need someone here for me, but you're not. That's why i looked up for my cousin, Venus. Even a cousin, you can even scold me for meeting her up, for telling her all things that were bothering me. If you want to isolate me in such a lonely soul, just tell me. You don't have to isolate yourself from me, & even isolate me from my cousin. If you're saying that i'm unfair, then what about you? Yesterday, you wanted me to delete my facebook's girl-friends. I deleted instantly, i thought after i deleted them, you'll feel happier & treat me in a better way. Who knows the next day, you're treating me like a total stranger, messaging me like i'm not a living soul. I've got feelings, i've got my own pride, my own dignity, my own courage. But why do i have to pull down every single one of my own values for you, when you're not even doing a part for this relationship? I don't know what to say, nor what to do, you've broken up my heart into millions pieces, or even zillions i should say. Yet, i'm still hanging there. I don't know whether to say myself stupid, or foolish, or strong, or determined. You're making me so confused. Like a lone wondering in a space where there is no one there for me, where there is no one there for me to hold on to. No one will know how much i've gone through, because i've never shared everything with anyone before. Yes, you've gone through a lot too, but you will always find someone to share with like, Judy, Kimberly and other friends. But why i cannot share with anyone? I don't know what to say. I don't know why i've to defend you in every issues even. I've already reached or even gone beyond my own limit, to be so confused whether to really let everything go & do all my own stuffs, or to pin on to these little little hopes.

Went to Town yesterday, caught the Nightmare at the Elm street. Quite horrifying tho. Nice, but not very nice. Hahaha, dk what i'm talking. Not bad, recommended ! M18 ! Too bad for those not qualified to do so ! lol , kidding. Went to Concorde Hotel after that, had a few bottles of drinks then headed off to YewTee and looked for friends. Headed home around 6 plus.

Love and electricity are one in the same, my dear. If you do not feel the jolt in your soul every time a kiss is shared, a whisper is
spoken, a touch is felt, then your not really in love at all.

As for yesterday, woke up around 1 then 3 plus decided to go Timah for pool, went with Vincent, AnXiu & ZiQiang & JunHong. Until 8 plus, moved over to YewTee to meet up the rest. Went back home around 5 in the morning. As for today, woke up late in the afternoon around 3 plus, then headed to meet Jackson, Benson, ZhiYong, YiXian, Nicholas, YiXian's girlf, then don't know his name & his, don't know her name & hers as well & Venus. Off to Jurong Safra for K-session then to JP for dinner. Went back home at 10.

I do my thing and you do yours. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, then it is beautiful. If not, it can't be helped.

Steven is lazy to update his blog. So here i am helping hym to post. He is busy thinking why chicken cannot fly and why bats can fly. Cause he is too bored :) ok end here le, bye bye

Liar, liar, pants on fire.
& You're the very one of them.
& You made me feel so sorry for what i've done to her.

Withered love.

I wish I knew what you were thinking
by that I would know what you really feel,
I wish I could read your mind
so that I would know I’m no where inside,
I wish I could make you understand
that it was not just a one night stand,
I wish that I could cause the moon to light the world with love,
Remove the clouds a moment to reveal the stars above,
I wish that you could wipe me that rolling tear from the corner of my eye,
bring happiness to my sorrow,
I wish that just once you could bring me my lost smile,
I wish that I could better things right from the very start.

You always want to have what you wanted.
You always asked from me, pleasing me to let you go for it.
Have you not seen how much i've tired to let you have what you want?
You want to go for photoshooting, i refused to let you go.
& What happened in the end?
I still paid partly for you, & let you go for it.
You said you want to go for modelling, i refused.
& In the end? The same thing happened too.
I've yet to swallow everything again.
You don't appreciate, you don't learn from your mistakes, you don't know that i'm trying my very best here.
You want love, you want concern, you want care, i tried giving, didn't i ?
I tried avoiding quarrels, these few days.
But you don't seem to be cooperating, you're scolding me, blaming me as & when you like.
I feel like a fool.
Everyday the same incidents came to my mind.
People betrayed you, by telling me what you did behind me,
but only a days, you could forgive him and talk to him in a way which is so much better than the way you talked to me.
I don't know what you're treating me as.
When we're together, you told people we're not.
You told that guy we've broke up, calling him all sorts of names which you used to call me.
& Yet denied when i first asked you, you sweared.
& With a swear, you could even lie.
& After that incident, you could actually blame me for not trusting you in certain things.
I'm a human, i got my dignity, i got my limit on my beliefs on others.
You don't seem to understand.
You made yourself so free to do all sorts of wrong things,
yet at the same time, you wanted me to trust you.
How on earth i'm supposed to do it?
Have you forgotten all the lies you gave me in the past?
Have you forgotten how many times and how much efforts i've put in & now i'm still here, with you?
Yes, i admit i've did wrong things too, but i've never did anything to make you feel that there's any third party in our relationship.
You don't need me like how you did in the past.
" You are the strength, that keep me walking.
You are the hope, that keep me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You're my everything.
Since the day you pick me up from darkness,
i knew you're my forever.
I promise you.
i'm always there,
when your heart is filled with sorrows and despairs.
I love you every single days. every single minutes, every single breath, no one could tear us apart.
I'll always remember the day you hold my hands,
My love for you is still as strong and never changing (:
No way any other guy can replace you.
Thanks for the happiness, the tears, the love, the kisses, the quarrels, the hugs, the forgiveness you've gave me the past 2 months.
Because of all that mentioned, it was what built the us now.
Baby, i love you!!"
Have you forgotten all you told me ?
Or these were just jokes for me at the end of the day?
Here i'm crying,
i don't need your sympathy,
i don't need your concern,
i don't need your care,
worst of all, i don't need your love,
anymore.
Because i know i won't force you to.
But at the very least, can i have just a little portion of your heart that belongs to me ? ):

Cousins' outing today ! So fast past already. Sad leys. Meet up soon again! (:

There are times when
I cant decide whether to see you or not,
I want to see you because I miss you
but there are times when I don't want to see you
because every time I do,
the fact that you don't see me
the way that I see you hurts me even more.

Happy Birthday Grandpa !





Ok, stayed at home for the whole day until around 6 plus, prepared myself & went over to Grandparents' house for a gathering dinner celebration for Grandpa's birthday. Very glad to see all my family members back. Had dinner together then crapped around. Haha, quite some topics we chatted. Oh well, slowly one by one left as some got school tomorrow & of course work. Headed back home around 11 plus (:

On the day we said goodbye i didn't know how much i'm gonna miss you, i'm about to lose myself in promises i can't keep. Girl, i'm traveling round the world, i hope that i can find you now, believe that time will tell somehow. Please tell me where you are, no place can be too far today. I raise my hands for you and pray. In my city of hope the streets are empty, hope the time will tell how i burn, for you.

When you love, there's no such thing as loving a little, but loving all the way.
Love may not ask you to give up your life, but it will require lots of sacrifices.

But, did you know that?

The decision to kiss for the first time is the most crucial in any love story.
It changes the relationship of two people much more strongly than even the final surrender. Because this kiss already has within it that surrender.

& what I really need, is a girl to be there for me, with all her will,
whose kisses are there when i need them,
whose hugs are there when i need them,
whose love is truly shown,
& not to hurt me throughout.
That's it.
Goodnight.

It hurts to say goodbye to the person you almost gave your life to.
Knowing that life won't be the same w/o them.
But its better to give up the feeling.
Rather than to know you're the only one fighting.

巳经习惯了,一个看不到的天空



Such a long day. Haha. Yesterday woke up around 9 plus in the morning then headed to Greenridge to have my breakfast. After that came back Fajar to rot. Haha. Met Vincent & cos at night then went over to help my brother with his homework. Went home prepared then went spending our night out. Spent a load :/

Woke up around 9 plus in the morning then headed over to Plaza to meet Vincent & co's. Had my lunch then walked around Plaza. Nothing to do at all. Went library to chill a lil then headed to Fajar & played soccer. Around evening went back home. Going to sleep soon ! Tired, not working tonight (:

Half-way footsteps.



Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,
I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,
How you felt around me? The memories we shared,
And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.

Now think about how we parted, and how much I cried,
But please don't speak, remember that I never ever lied,
That I told you the honest truth about why we were to split,
But now I'd like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.

The pain was deep, unbearable and painful, for so many years,
I'll never forget all the sadness, all the uncontrollable tears,
Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got,
And although it is hard I am beginning to forget what I have not.

You were a special part of my life that I will never forget,
A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret,
You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart,
Although sometimes I wish that you and I didn't have to part.

You were my first love and my true love, that will always be so,
After all of the heartache, sadness and never ending pain, I know,
You and I had something special and that will never change,
Because I love you and loving someone else will always seem strange.

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, not ever,
I'd like you to remember that once upon a time, we said forever,
That I had hopes and dreams, that I was the one who threw them away.

& I hope what i did was right.

我在等一个人, 在等我的永恒.

I'm walking away, i need to clear my head.



If you love someone tell them soon and tell them often
You never know what time love has
If they don't know how you feel their love may pass
Show them that you love them and that you care
Cause without warning they may not remain there
Don't ever take for granted how much they like you
If they're unsure about you to avoid heartache you may be left blue
Don't ever take for granted their affection
Careless behavior can send them in the other direction
And in the end you'll lose your love connection
A reality check is one that many people hate to cash
Because a lot of times the payment is seeing their hopes die in a flash
The moral of the story is if you love someone express it a lot
Because the lack of expression can make it last not

I'm working again later on ! (:

Met Jian Ping in the afternoon today around 3 plus. Then headed to meet up Vincent then to Causeway Point to send my phone for repair. Haha, walked around there then came back around 6 in the evening. The service retailer called soon later to tell me that my phone is ready for collection, then i've to go through & fro again. Haha, came back home around 8 plus. Going to work soon ! (:

Alone, dancing away.



I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new.
What is broken is broken and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.

Yesterday night met Ah Ping at 6 plus at his area to chill. Had countless topics to chat about but what attracted me the most is one, secret. Haha, 8 30 already & he had to go home, so went different ways back. After that met Vincent at 2 a.m plus & went to work ! Tiring, but worth it (: Came back home at 7 & then slept.

Baby i'm sorry to see, maybe we're not meant to be.

Yesterday went to Clementi kbox. Met Vincent & co's at 12 plus then waited for 2 before heading in & sing. Sing halfway only starting to drink. Until 8 we left for funeral at Jurong West. Sat down there awhile before going to BJ to look for somebody. Came back hometown around 7 plus morning, super tired ! haha (:

这次你给我的伤害,我不知道要如何去控制.
You could never imagine this kind of pain you put me through.

Recap from where we started to let it grow until now, everything seemed running away.



你的爱走了 我的心碎了
我彻底被你伤透了
如果你爱我 就别伤害我
难道我们的缘分已散了
没 有我你是不是很快乐
如果是这样 我会让你走
感谢老天爷让我们相爱过.

Falling into loneliness.



I can't feel the love anymore. Been days, or rather weeks, things have been utterly bad for us. I don't know why, but it just seemed like you're never yourself anymore. & I have no idea on how to go on with this. This may just be a test for us, but a test which could make me feel like letting go. I don't feel your presence like how you would crave to meet me up in the past. Feelings for you started on the August, which grows deeper & closer through the days at chalet. 7 months, after 7 months, this is no longer us, no longer me, no longer you. There's no one to blame for this outcome. Perhaps it's just because we don't know how to rewind things back to normal. I don't know how to feel, to be angry, to be sad, to be disappointed etc, i'm just not myself. & I dk what to say anymore.

When you have only a chance to cherish the best cliques among all.



Woke up around 3 plus ytd, prepared & met Ah Ping. Went over Greenridge to sell my iPhone then went Plaza to get a new device. Went over Greenridge kopitiam & drank beer. 4 bottles of Tiger(s) then to 7-Eleven bought Kings Robert & went to the playground to slack. His brother called to meet up, & he's with another Kings Robert. Haha, went to meet him & played some games. We finished all ! & He's drunk, & i carried him home. Went to find Norman after that, had a few bottles of Carlsberg, then happily stroll back home (:

It's always the same in every relationship, there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together, while the other doesn't even remember the things they've been through. I hate that I have to be the one who remembers every little detail while you can't seem to remember me at all.

Slept a lot these 2 days. Feeling so awake. Haha. Woke up 1t 1230 today, before going to meet friends at Jurong then to Queensway. Shopped around, crapped around. Until then 7, came back Fajar to play soccer. Then went home at 9 plus. Working later ! Money money moneyyyy (:

Perhaps, you live much better without me.

最后的战役.


Worked yesterday & came back home around 12 p.m. Slept until 4 plus before going to Plaza to chill awhile. Nothing to do so bought a soccer ball & came back to play all the way until the lights turned off. Wah, super tired. Plus my legs super pain! Came back home, going to bathe soon, then sleep ! (: Goodnight peopleeeeeeee.

Went Fajar just now, played basketball with friends. Going off to 6head play basketball & chill soon ! (:

Holding on to someone who doesn't
even cherish you is hard.

hahahaha

Went to Imm in the afternoon. Walked around & had mac for our lunch. Went over to Chevron taking the shuttle bus. Wanted to go for bowl for it was down for repair ! Ok nvm, chilled around Chevron, played the arcade there. & Went back home (:

One sided love
Is never gonna work
So let me tell you something
That' I'm sure you've never heard of
Tender love and care
In case you're unaware
So I tell you what
Let me tell you where it's at
Hit me with your best shot.

I'm giving you a second chance
But you gotta understand
If you don't know how to love me
I will find someone who can
So read my lips for the last time
I tell you now with no regret
if you don't get your act together
Even your name, I will forget.

I wanna help you out, tell you what it's all about
What I feel, what I need, how's it gonna be
So what you wanna do, what you really wanna do
'Cause I've decided everything i want from you.

Reality sets in on me,
Twice a day or so,
To wipe away these memories,
We're making as we go,

These thoughts of you inside my mind,
That are humbled in my heart,
Knowing you're the perfect find,
I wont let us tear it all apart.

So I take it slow, take two steps back,
And go forward four steps more,
Past the point of no return,
So I duck and hit the floor,

And get back up, suppress these thoughts,
And keep my feelings on the low,
To have good times, make more memories,
And on and on the cycle grows.

And we both walk that sacred line,
between love and the obsessed,
Priceless times with you my love,
As I watch our love progress.

Priceless times, these memories,
That we're making as we go,
To defy the logic set in stone;
And this love we have to show.

Isolate, to resolve?



Woke up late at 10 when i'm supposed to have a medical report at Cmpb at 8:30. Ok, called & changed to appt to 1 in the afternoon. Meet up cliques at 11, went Lot one & shopped around & brought myself a slippers. Bought our lunch @ Ock, then headed off to smoke before to Cmpb. Waited for so long for the M.O! Finshed everything at 3 plus, then went for soccer before coming back home.

Memories, is better than nothing.

Went town in the afternoon after waking up at 2 plus. Woke up to see my bill which cost 400plus. What the hell is wrong. Ok, prepared then headed to town (: Chilled , & went for a pool session at Concord. Haha, played for 3 hours, went to walk around town. Was 10 plus, so took bus & headed back home. Gotta work later on, screw me off.

Been working nowadays, super tired. Met Bi in the afternoon, & the kitten. Haha, cooked, ate our dinner, sent her home at 10 (:

断了的弦 再怎么连 我的感觉 你已听不见 你 的转变 像断掉的弦 再怎么接 音都不对 你的改变我能够分辨 我沉默 你的话也不多 我们之间少了什么 不说 哎哟 微 笑后 表情终于有点难过 握着你的手 问你 确定了再走 我突然释怀地笑 笑声盘旋半山腰 随风在飘摇啊摇 来到你 的面前绕 你泪水往下地掉 说会记住我的好 我也弯着了嘴角笑 你的美 已经给了谁 追了又追 我要不回 我了解 离开树的叶 属于地上的世界 凋谢 断了的弦 再弹一遍 我的世界 你不在里面 我的指尖 已经弹出茧 还是无法留你在我 身边 断了的弦 再怎么练 我的感觉 你已听不见 你的转变 像断掉的弦 再怎么接 音都不对 你的改变我能够分辨

On the 21st, went out with Baby for the celebration of our 6th month. Went to Causeway to catch Alice In The Wonderland. Quite an awesome movie. Had our lunch at " Dian Xiao Er " , & the meals there were quite delicious. After movie went for a lil walk, bought some drinks and foods before heading back home. Back to my place then sent Baby home at 9 plus.

Baby's mood today is like..... Hope she'll be fine tomorrow ):

1 Hour 50 Minutes, English
Sun 21 March 2010

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Contact Number: 6836 9074

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Contact Number: 6251 1370

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Contact Number: 6454 1640

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Contact Number: 1900 912 1234

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Contact Number: 1900 912 1234

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Contact Number: 6738 0555

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Baby which one you want ?

Happy 6th Month Baby !



Met Baby in the afternoon, had a slight quarrel. Things got better awhile after that. Went back home with Baby around. She's sick ): Get well soon my dear ! Watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button in HBO, after that sent bi home at 1145 (: Tomorrow will be catching A.I.T.W.L with Baby !

Went to work in the morning, didn't realize that i've not recovered from my illness past few days. All came back again, even worse. Went to Timah to see doctor & doctor told me about all my sickness. Waited for very long! Prescribed the medicines, 7 types of them :/ cabbed back home, bought cigg, sleep (:

I don't know what true love is,